This summer I had gotten an abortion with my boyfriend, which left me very depressed. My boyfriend left me suddenly because I was moving and it hurt me a lot. My father raped me a few weeks afterwards while he was drunk (he does not know about the abortion, he was just intoxicated) and seems to have not even remembered. He drinks a lot and verbally abuses me and my mom, but has gotten better. But all since my childhood he was like that and i’ve never felt alright around him.
My family is very well off, but when i moved i became a “call girl” if you will, basically letting guys pay me for sexual things. I would go and spend all the money afterwards because new items were the only things in my life that could make me happy, or at least look forward to something. I did this while talking to this guy (who I call my boyfriend just to make things not as confusing) who I care about a lot. I lied to him the whole time about it and he just now found out. However i had stopped doing this for about a month.
I keep on trying to tell him that who did all that promiscuous stuff wasn’t the real me, but he won’t believe me. he thinks I’m a pathological liar because I’ve lied so many times and for so long about whoring myself out.
I’ve had so much pain come to me all the sudden and those horrible events have left a very painful wound… so I would do stupid things like this.
I love him so much but he can hardly even look at me now.
Please help..
he was the only person who cared it seemed and he made me so happy.
What do I do..
I’d do anything to get him back but I feel like he’s made up his mind that we can never be a real couple..
please help me. I can’t have no one again. My heart hurts.
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This guy did not know you. He is not sure you will not start lying again, it is too easy for you and he cannot tell. Really, he should not have to. Just tell him you are sorry, you were trying to be someone you are not to be with him, and move on.
Hearts do that. But like any good muscle, they get stronger when treated right and exercised.
I would recommend you see about getting a regular job, and spending some time in a battered women’s shelter or something like that as a volunteer. Your mother will be needing your help… And stay away from your father, do not sleep at their home anymore.
The only thing you can do is ask him to please hear you out just one time and calmly tell him the ENTIRE story. Tell him how much pain you have suffered and you just want to start over and attempt to be happy. Tell him how he is the only real thing in your life that makes you happy and to give you a chance to prove to him what a good girlfriend and friend you can be. If he still is not interested then you will never be able to change his mind, im sorry. You sound like a good person who has had a hard life, just try to start over and be happy by no means of harm but by means of love and friendship.
Sweetie if this is real, lots of red flags that it’s not, but if it is talk to your mom, teacher, counselor, principal, police tomorrow! Next, what does being well off have to do with anything, finally, move on trying to win him over after all he knows is a losing battle and his lost frankly. Find someone who is right for you and won’t judge nor abandon you my love, well best of luck to you if real would love to hear back we could talk and I could support you moving on! Ciao,
GAH
if this is true you should focus on getting counselling and solving your self esteem problems and help to process the trauma you’ve been through.
sounds bad here,he needs to care you at this time but i think its not possible,better you share all your thoughts and all let that might brings you back,keep on loving one day he will knows you
It’s not going to happen……………………… live with it, but get on with your life, time will heal